bah humbug-i'm an accidental, internal scrooge!

I am totally depressed and this is completely the wrong time for it. Maybe Christmas will cheer me up. Maybe. It is all so fucking complicated. It should be easy. I'm trying to stay positive and so far I am doing okay. I feel a little closed in right now though.

Merry Christmas Eve! I bet I say Merry Christmas tomorrow. Because it is entirely necessary to say it repeatedly.

I should be asleep! I can't though, and I will get a rude and unwelcome awakening at 8am like I have the whole time I have been here. I need some space.

Night kids.